r e l a t i o n s h i p s

     Relationships, they are ummmm I don't know how to even really start this post but by saying they are crappy but amazing at the same time. I feel like in our society and/or generation it is so hard to come by a good relationship. Everyone constantly thinks its cool to mess around behind each others backs and pretend like we don't care all because we are all in fear of getting "exposed" on social media. i find that totally crazy. like if you like me and want to be with me you better tell me exactly how you are feeling screw getting exposed. I could careless if someone tried to expose me for saying that i care about something and trying to fight for it. I know you all see me complain on twitter constantly about have a "bae" but in reality that "bae" shit is for the birds. I want someone real and I feel like when people say bae its just a joke. If we are going to be together i want you to take me seriously and give me your all. I dont have time for games like at all. 

       I feel like i meet a ton of different guys and none of them are good enough. Like im 19 and as much as I say that i need to get my shit together my shit is pretty together compared to some of yall (not even being cocky) but I feel like with guys i expect alot. I expect you to have a strong work effort. I expect for you to have goals and do amazing things in life. I expect you to atleast try to get your shit together, I'm a very independent person and I just want a guy who seems like hes on the same level as me.I dont want to settle for anything less. 

    Also, when im in in a relationship I fall hard and love hard. Im a very caring person and will go above and beyond for the guy that im with. I will do almost anything that you ask me too buy you random shit all the time and just love you with all my heart. I think this is why im so scared to even get involved with anyone because I know this about myself. As soon as I feel myself catching feelings for someone I get scared and fall back hard asab. Im currently in that predicament. Ive met this amazing guy who is not only gorgeous but has a wonderful personality and I vibe well with. But i can feel myself pulling away from him because im so scared of getting hurt. Everything just seems to good to be true. Like why would he even want to be with me and the fact that i dont feel like im cute enough to even be with him. Ive honestly never felt like this before and it sucks but i know that im just hurting myself because if i fuck things up i know ill be upset to see him with someone else. 

     Moral of this blog, yes I love being in a relationship but they are crappy in my opinion. I love constantly having someone to spoil and talk to and just do cute shit together with but i hate the hurt and trust issues that come with it. 

xoxo,

KmacTheG